Reflexive

I just sent an email to someone I haven't talked to in a long time, and I'm kind of nervous.

It was someone I was friends with for about a year a half, but we fell out of touch awhile ago.  The last few months, I've been thinking about her a lot, and praying, and wondering if she's doing okay.  I felt really compelled to be her friend before—like, even though she put up the impression of being independent and confident and fine, there were a few things that she said, or that happened, that clearly said she was not okay.  Her family was kind of a mess, too.  I spent the night at her house once, and after even a couple of hours I wanted to just get out of that atmosphere.  (I didn't, and we had fun, but it was a little like walking on eggshells around either of her parents, even though they were really nice to me.)  As I got to know her, I felt so compelled to just love on her, you know?  I just felt like she needed unconditional love so much—not even mine, although I loved her too, but Jesus'.   I felt honored to think maybe I was meant to be the one to show that to her.  And I felt absolutely awful for not trying to stay in touch more.   I worry about her a lot, honestly.  For a little while after we stopped talking, I thought maybe we were just meant to be friends for a season, but I think God's contradicting me on that point.

So now that she's been on my mind so much lately, I decided I'd try to remake friends with her.  Frankly, I'm a bit terrified.  I'd really appreciate it if you guys could pray for wisdom and the Holy Spirit in this, and pray for her, too.  Grazie!